Reality TV

I work for a reality TV show. Today's work made that fact stunningly clear.

cinema verite' with a twist.

I met some very nice people today, however, and it was a nice change of pace from sitting at a desk all day.


Here's a ballsy quote from Joe Scarborough that has nothing to do with my day today. Nonetheless, Scarborough earns some points:

"This is one Republican who would prefer that the former half-term governor promote her reality shows and hawk her books without demeaning the reputations of Presidents Reagan and Bush. These great men dedicated their lives to public service and are too good to be fodder for her gaudy circus sideshow. If Republicans want to embrace Palin as a cultural icon whose anti-intellectualism fulfills a base political need, then have at it. I suppose it’s cheaper than therapy. But if the party of Ronald Reagan, Paul Ryan and Marco Rubio wants to return to the White House anytime soon, it’s time that Republican leaders started standing up and speaking the truth to Palin,"

kaboom.

So, this post is a little fragmented.



Art imitates life.



[So now this is the point where the radio comes on, and we compare our lives to the lyrics of a song]

I Found A Little Bit of Groove Today

And I feel great.

Tomorrow, I'm switching mah tracks and playing set PA for the day. Twist!

Also, the traffic in LA is not an exaggeration. Today's trip in to work lasted an hour and a half. No joke... no joke...


[I listen to the wind, to the wind of my soul]

Churchy Church Church

That title is supposed to be in a sing-song fashion, but I've yet to figure out how to convey that in text form.

So, I went to church today at a lovely place called Ecclesia. To be fair, I had visited once before during the Compass industry trip in May of '09, and yes, the service is still as good as I remember it. Plus, it's in an old movie theater on Hollywood Blvd., how cool is that?

Very cool.

Especially since they just got a new screen that they'll be able to show films (movies) on. Next Sunday they're showing It's A Wonderful Life.

It's only the best Christmas movie ever (Yes, Elf is good too. A close second)

And, my Jimmy Stewart impression is getting pretty good, so maybe I'll bust that out... good way to make friends... if they're into impersonations... and dead Hollywood icons....


Work starts up again tomorrow. Grrr, I'm nervous. Mainly because I haven't really "dived in" just yet. I'm not acclimated.

Let's hope this week changes that.



[Fences in a row]

I'm Trying to Find a Place to Live...

Something that shall protect me from the hot, Los Angeles sun.

So far, it's not going great. Granted, I only officially started my search today, not much was accomplished other than finding out where I don't want to live (which is Wilshire).

However, in my random explorations today, I drove through Echo Park and Silver Lake, two neighborhoods I'd pondered living in before I moved out here. I think I'll refine my search in these areas to see what I can see. After all, it couldn't hurt, plus, the vibe of those neighborhoods really resonate with me.

Though, the vibe I'm really diggin' is in Marina Del Rey. It's so relaxed out there. Everyone's got a dog. Every cute girl's got a cute bike. And every jeep's got a surfboard on top. It's a bit of a hike from Hollywood, which is a bummer, but then again, it's closer than the valley.

Ultimately, it's East vs. West (as always). Silver Lake and it's adjacent "hipster" neighborhoods on the East side, or the beach bum lifestyle of Marina Del Rey/Venice Beach of the West side.

Decisions, decisions...



[He's as wise as a prize fighter]

Apparently, I Live Near the Ocean Now.

but it's a bit of a walk.

Today, I hopped on over to Marina Del Rey to hang out with my friend Eric (who also went to Compass, also wants to be a writer, and is also from the Midwest). We proceeded to visit the ocean, then drive up the PCH, all the while pointing out different things that we find "weird" about this place.

It was a long conversation.

Hanging out was nice, and it also helped to cure the "New City Blues" which is a mental condition/song title that I just invented. I also may have stumbled over an important discovery: Having friends and making new friends reduces the feeling that you're a complete stranger, utterly alone in a sprawling metropolis.

It's just a hypothesis, I know, but it's crazy enough to work.



Also, I met a Siberian Husky named Sasha. We are friends now.



[And he shifts in his sleep and the Earth begins to quake]

Um, thanks?

It's Thanksgiving. Hope yours was a happy one.

Mine was pretty good. Though, it was my first Thanksgiving away from home.

Got to have dinner at my old boss' house though, which was nice. It felt good to reconnect with him and to meet the rest of his family.

Now, some random thoughts that I may elaborate on later:

"Vesuvius" by Sufjan Stevens is my jam right now. I'm finding a lot to identify in the lyrics, even though I'm not 100% solid on what the lyrics are trying to say. I feel the emotions and connotations behind them, and in a way, that's enough. Something in there resonates.

I'm not a huge fan of censorship, that is, bleeping out curse words with asterisks or some other symbol. I feel that I should either have the cajones -- the integrity -- to type the actual word, or leave it out altogether.

I'm trying to coax a relationship with this city. Therefore, I might take a drive up The PCH (they tell me that's the proper slang for "Pacific Coast Highway") in hopes of finding a spark... I'm worried I might be taking things a little too fast. I'm an old-fashioned kind of guy.



[Follow me now or follow your death]

Sleepy Times

I'm wiped out. The past seven days have been nothing but crazy, especially the last three.

I realize that I've been "on my own" for most of it, that is, I've been with people I don't know too well, or, complete strangers altogether. I've learned a lot, but I've also been left with a yearning to return to some familiarity.

But that's 3,000 miles away from me now.

I think I just need to connect with some of the people I know out here this weekend. Explore a little bit. Just "hang out", which is something I haven't been able to do in a while.

Still, I miss Grand Rapids, and everyone in it -- well, except for that one guy... and that weird old lady, I mean, what's her deal?

Now, it's time for bed. I can't wait.



[I don't do too much talkin' these days]

Not Bad for Day Two

Remember that interview I had yesterday? It panned out.

I started my job today (less than 48 hours after arriving in the city).

I work on Sunset Blvd.

And I have business cards that read "Stephen Pell: Executive Assistant"



If my life had a face, I'd punch it.



[We used to wait for it.]

Not Bad for Day One

I had an interview today. For a job. A pretty good job.

We'll see how that pans out.

Interviews give me trouble sometimes. After they're over, I spend the rest of the day dissecting the whole ordeal, criticizing and nitpicking until I believe myself to be a complete idiot incapable of stringing together coherent sentences. Whenever anyone asks me to explain myself, I get a little flustered. Am I supposed to have a detailed outline with bullet points and segues and whatnot? That's more of a question that's answered easier over a beer or two... more interviews should take place in bars. Let's work on making that the norm.

So, we'll see how that pans out.

It would certainly be a boon for me to land a job so quickly. After all, the trip out here came with some unexpected costs, and I'm gonna be needing to find a place soon -- which is another subject altogether -- but, overall, I could go either way, to be honest with you. If I get the job, great, but if I don't, then that just gives me some more time to take the city in, which isn't a bad thing at all.

In fact, I'm gonna do some of that tomorrow as my friend Jen and I explore East LA. I'm sure it'll be a riot.

I probably shouldn't use the term "riot" anymore, being in Los Angeles and all.

It's too soon... too soon.


[Sittin' in a bar -- pickle in a jar -- in Jackson]

I Have Arrived

And I have sensory overload.

Everything is wonderful and new and odd and scary.

My new home.



[Let your love grow tall]

Who's Afraid of West Texas?

Still me.

However, I'm less afraid than I was. In fact, today's drive was a pleasant surprise. There were enough unexpected sights along the long road through Texas that it shook things up ever so slightly and produced many "oh, wow" moments.

Like this windfarm (which stretched on for miles and miles. Literally, for about a half hour, this is what I saw on every side of me.)



Can we just agree that Texas is awesome? I mean, come on. What's not to love?

I'll tell you what I love: Dallas. It's awesome. For a second there, I considered just unpacking my car right there and settling in -- maybe see if I can get a job as the new Cowboy's coach or something.

I'm in El Paso now, and I'm a little melancholy to be leaving this great state tomorrow. Think maybe I'll slip over into Juarez and see if I can't get some good tequila to perk me up... or just get kidnapped/murdered.

This time tomorrow, I should be in LA. It's finally here.


[The highway's jammed with broken heros on a last-chance power drive]

Roots

So, at the moment, I'm only a block away from the house I was originally brought home to as a newborn -- Mesquite, Texas.

And it feels good. It really does. Feels familiar, like it just "fits".

But I digress.

With my brand new alternator, I rolled out of West Memphis at 2pm with M. Ward blastin'. (That is, I was playing M. Ward loudly on my stereo. He was not, in fact, in my passenger seat carrying out the "shooting" part of a drive-by shooting.)

That last paragraph came to me at the very beginning of the day, and I've been waiting to write it down ever since. I'm not sure it plays, and consequently, I was too busy thinking about that all day to take in much else.

Not much else to say. It was an uneventful leg of the trip, which was most welcomed.

Tomorrow, though. Tomorrow, I go through West Texas. I don't need to tell you that West Texas is not only boring, but also terrifying.

So, I won't tell you. I'll let Anton tell you instead:

Needless to say, if anyone asks me to get out of my car, I will not. Not at all.

[Lord, I'm a fool for a lonesome train]

I Did A Song

Hope you like it.

"Graceland, Graceland [West] Memphis Tennessee" or "Stuck Inside of Memphis with the Texas Blues Again"

That car alarm has been going non-stop for five minutes.

I'm at the Ramada in West Memphis, Arkansas. If you're keeping score at home, West Memphis is almost Memphis... almost.

So, why am I in West Memphis? A questioned pondered by the great thinkers of every generation, and now, I ponder it myself. Luckily, I don't have to look too deep inside my soul to discover the answer. I just have to pop the hood on my car.

The alternator, as alternators do, has gone kaput, rather unexpectedly, in a state that I actually don't have a song lyric for. It's a shame. However, when I was trying to fix the electrical problem, which was initially incorrectly diagnosed as "bad connections" on the battery, I stopped at an Autozone in Osceola, AR. While the sales rep was fixing the loose ends, I though "Osceola, Arkansas with a broken connection" sounded like a pretty sweet song title, or at least a decent lyric.

So, I stuck with it and imagined someone like Jack White belting it out over a lo-fi piano recording, then, it was clear that my "broken connection" was something much worse.

All electrical systems failed. It was like I was being hit with an ion cannon. (If you're a girl and you understand that last part, I would like to propose, or at least get coffee). I pulled over to the side of the road and waited for a tow truck.

For three hours.

Apparently, when you're on the Tennessee/Arkansas border, things get confused, and it's impossible to explain to anyone over the phone exactly where you are.

And so, now, I sit in my hotel room, belly full of Waffle House fare, and I stick it out. Hoping against hope that the alternator can be replaced before Noon tomorrow, and I can be back out on that highway.

Headed towards the Lone Star State.

Yah!

[What do you do with the pieces of a broken heart?]

Michigan Seems Like a Dream to Me Now

I'm in Illinois at perhaps one of my favorite places in the world. Unfortunately, it's dark here, and chilly, which prevents me from running around fields of tall grass with no shoes and a sharpened stick. But I digress.

Today was a tough day emotionally. Lots of highs and lows. Lots of tears and mucus.

The music was classic travel music. A wonderful mix by my friend Amy took me out of Traverse City, and the Elizabethtown soundtrack brought me into GR.

Then, I said goodbye to two of my best friends. I don't know when I'll see them again, but I know I'll carry a piece of them with me in my heart for the rest of my life. They have meant so much to me these past few years. I can only hope to find friends half as good in LA.

After departing GR, the music switched to Arcade Fire, "Suburbs". That album was meant for the night, I think.

Driving through farmlands at night is a real treat. A large black expanse pockmarked with twinkling radio towers and family farms. It's like driving on the night sky.

Tomorrow is a long day. Fifteen hours, approximately.

And that's if I don't stop in Memphis for barbecue... If I don't stop...

[Graceland, Graceland...]

The Last Night in the Ol' Bailey Boarding House

Tomorrow, I set sail (metaphorically) for Los Angeles.

I'm packing now. Sorting through my possessions and deciding what to take, and what to cast off.

Chaff and the grain.

It's a strange feeling to pack your life into the back of a red Izuzu. It's surreal and a bit frightening, but sharpening as well.

The minimizing prevents me from getting too stressed. With less stuff, I feel there's less to worry about, and therefore, I'm left to focus on just the vital bits. It's a very streamlined way of living. Let's see how long that lasts in LA.

I realize that I haven't been the best warden of this blog in recent months. Chalk that up to a busy work schedule and a feeling of boredom and monotony in my environment. Hopefully, that wont be a problem in LA. I can't imagine feeling uninspired in a city so rich with new experiences and culture.

The blog will thrive again, oh yes. It will thrive.